Major Stuff Up on ProPoints :(

Well, I discovered on Monday that I had been allocated too many bloody points on ProPoints. I was given an extra 14pts because I am still breastfeeding. When I weighed myself Monday morning on my home scales it was showing a 2kg gain! WTF?!?! Perplexed? YEP! I just didn't understand what was going on! Sure, I had a few wines on the weekend, but it was all accounted for in my exercise points & my extra weekly bonus points, so I was 100% sure I hadn't done anything wrong. Later that morning I checked the Weight Watchers site & noticed someone had posted some info about breastfeeding points. Apparently you get 14pts for fully breastfeeding, and only 7pts for part time breastfeeding, ie. feeding a child that is not fully breastfed! WELL, I adjusted my points to the correct amount for the week, and I then had a deficit of points! Soooooo not happy!!! However, I worked my arse off the next 2 days to try & set things right, and at weigh in today, I had a gain of 100gms. Better than the 2kgs from a few days ago, but still not happy considering I followed the plan!
Explained the situation to my WW leader Liz (she is just fantastic!), and she was unaware of the points situation (ie. 14pts Vs 7pts), so got out her literature, and sure enough, I was allocated the wrong points. Ho Hum!
Will ensure I follow the plan 100% this week to make up for this gain. Only a tiny gain, but still a hump in my road to get to that illusive Under 100kgs goal!
Must admit I am really feeling great about myself & liking what I see in the mirror! Although I am still enormous by my standards, I can REALLY notice the difference, and I find it just amazing to see my reflection shrinking in the mirror! My family & friends have been so wonderful with their encouragement - it's so lovely to have so much support!
Something I have been thinking a lot about lately is flabby skin. I have a friend who has lost over 40kgs with lapband surgery (and no exercise or eating properly), and she is looking at having surgery cause she has flabby skin all over. It is something I have been thinking about, and when I was 10kgs or so heavier, I did notice my thighs were becoming extremely flabby with loose skin as I lost weight. However, over the last few months, it has disappeared! It's just amazing, but obviously the hard work I am putting in on the xtrainer is toning up the flab! As I get smaller, I am going to start working on my tummy with sit ups or some sort of other ab exercise, and I have just started doing some light weights to tone up my "bingo wings" on my arms. When I reach goal weight I do plan on having a breast reduction & lift, and would say I would also need a tummy tuck, cause after 4 babies, I just don't see how I could ever achieve a flat tummy, even with exercise. However, we shall wait & see. I know I will get to goal, I'm just so impatient to get there!! The future is so exciting!
Will take some pics this week to show you how I am going!
Onwards & downwards......

Yeah Baby! ProPoints is here!!!

The new WW program "ProPoints" started this week & I am loving it. Don't think I have ever eaten so much fruit in my life!!! It definitely makes me think twice about all my food choices.

I'm happy to report a loss of 1.2kgs this week. Soooooo damn close to that 25kgs goal - only 200gs away! Next week I will be sure to blitz it in!

So, will keep plodding along. I am doing everything right, so don't need to "tweak" anything. Will just keep an eye on the ProPoints tracking as everything is different, so want to keep in control of what I am eating.

Onwards & downwards.....

A Saturday Afternoon Shopping Expedition

I went shopping for some clothes yesterday. Just felt I needed a few items, as I am currently living in trackies that are becoming to big for me. I find it hard to buy clothes in the warmer months, because the pants are all generally 3/4 length, and I need something a bit longer cause I don't want to show off my deformed ankle. I have not given a stuff about it in the past, but I just can't seem to ignore the glances from people at my ankles - one enormous deformed one, and the other normal!!
So, I dragged my daughter along with me, to my local TS Store (TS= Taking Shape for sizes 14+). Love this store, and have bought a lot from there, although they are extremely pricey! Grabbed about 14 items off the rack, all in size 24 or XL, which is my usual size. What a shock it was to me that I had to ask for smaller sizes, and then once those garments were tried on, I had to go even smaller! And in the pants, I had to go even smaller again!!! I have jumped 1-2 dress sizes in tops (damn these big boobs or I would be smaller!!) & 2-3 sizes in the pants! YAYYYYY!!! It just then dawned on me how far I have come! Honestly, nothing could give me greater motivation than seeing my reflection in that dressing room mirror in those smaller clothes!! And of course, I bought 5 items of clothing to reward myself for my hard work! I think I will be on a high from that moment for a few more days to come!
Cannot wait to go shopping again after losing another 20kgs! How exciting that will be!!!

Whoop Whoop!

2.2kgs gone this week!! Whooo hooooo!! I am so goddamn happy I could dance! I am feeling fantastic & KNOW I can do this!
AND I am under 110kgs!!! I now weigh 109.1kgs...... only 9.2kgs and I will be in double digits! Geez, I cannot imagine what it will be like to weigh in under 100kgs - I just cannot wait!!!!
Sure, I didn't live up to some of my goals for last week - didn't post my daily points on my blog & didn't go over my points some days. But I ate out a lot the last week, so I "guesstimated" a lot of the time, and I always over compensate. I tried exercising on the treadmill, but my ankle did not hold up on it, and I've been in a bit of pain this week. However, the xtrainer was FINALLY fixed yesterday, so we're back in action! Yahooooo!!!
On a mission for a big loss this week - need 1.4kg to reach my 25kg goal. I can do it. Had some lemon tart today, and going to have some wines tonight (it's naughty Thursday after all!) but going to be 100% on track the rest of the week. It's my last week on the WW points system, as next week they are introducing "Pro Points", which looks interesting. I'm in 2 minds about the change - excited, cause it is supposed to be an excellent program, but disappointed that I am doing so well on Points, and now they change it, and all my recipe books, point calculators, etc will be useless to me! Not happy Jan!!
Had lots of compliments today about the way I am looking - always a great help with the motivation!!! Thanks girls xx
Onwards & downwards.................

Ho Hum....

Loss of 1.4kgs this week. I know I should be happy. I worked my arse off for a good loss. But I am disappointed. I had a gain of 1.4kgs last week & this week I wanted to lose that & more. Yes, I know I am being silly. REALLY silly, but I can't help the way I feel.
ANYWAY, have been on the phone & email this morning to make sure I get the tech out to fix the xtrainer ASAP. Just waiting for him to call to make a time with me - GOD it better be this week, but I know it won't be. It always takes him about a week to come out. So, I guess I will try getting some exercise done on the bloody boring treadmill. The only problem is that my feet & ankle don't handle exercise very well. I have been exercising in a pair of slippers or barefoot on the xtrainer, which suits my feet & ankle very well, but I will have to wear runners on the treadie, and they kill me after about 5mins. Might have to do some bike riding in the next few days instead?
Goals for this week beside my usual tracking, water & exercise, which are all fantastic -

• Stay well under my 30pts
• Wine ONE night this week
• Will not eat any exercise points!

This Week's Points Totals

Thursday - 51.5pts (+ 1 bonus exercise pt) Okay, so I had a major meltdown/blowout! Ate & drank everything in my sight! I think I needed to get it out of my system & I'm glad the pack of Mini Mars Bars are now out of the house (in my tummy!!) Back on track tomorrow!
Friday - 40pts (+ 12 bonus exercise pts) Yep, blew the points again, but it was all due to the fact I REALLY needed to have a couple of wines! Made sure I did a heap of exercise first though to make up for it! No more wine for the week now & no more going over points!!
Saturday - 29.5pts (+ 13 bonus exercise pts) Whoop whoop, a big pat on the back for me!! I am under points for the day, and hubby is currently pouring himself a nice cold glass of wine, but I AM strong, and I am going to bed to read a book!
Sunday - 34pts ( + 9 bonus exercise pts) Bugger, went over again! Too many Halloween lollies & chocolates, and a bottle of champers shared with the hubby!! Made the effort to get on the xtrainer at 9pm though to make up the points with exercise! Have decided to not worry about weaning Aidan! I am always so worried about what others say & how they scoff about the fact I am still feeding a toddler! Well f*ck them (hmmm, I say that, but I really do worry about what others say!!). Anyway, I feel he is beginning to wean himself, and is only having 3 feeds a day, so I will just let it be for the time being & see how he goes.
Monday - 37pts ( + 9 Bonus exercise pts) Bloody hell, went over again! What is wrong with me??!?! I really need to get my act together, especially as I will be losing 7pts soon when Aidan is weaned! Speaking of which, he only had 2 feeds today - totally missed the midday feed. What a good little boy, weaning himself!!! Anyway, Hubby's birthday today & I made a chocolate cake for him, and some vanilla cupcakes for a Melbourne Cup Day BBQ we are going to tomorrow. Of course I had to have a little bit of Birthday cake with ice cream (7pts), and shortly we will be having some MORE champers (3.5pts), and with all the tasting I did of the icing when I was making it, I added another 4pts to my total, just to be safe. I am so religious about tracking every morsel that enters my mouth, which I think is a great habit to have. And with my exercise & water intake excellent, I should be able to go great guns, so just have to make sure I stay under my 30pts (soon to be 23pts!!!) REALLY want a big loss this week!
Tuesday - 41.5pts ( + 13 bonus exercise pts) Melbourne Cup Day here, and we had a BBQ with some friends. They had a huge antipasto platter (my favourite!!), but I only had a couple of things & steered clear of the cheeses & dips. Had a burger & a snag in bread (OMG to die for - I love BBQ snags!), and salad. Took my water bottle which I kept refilling. Must be the first time I have not been drunk on Cup Day (besides the times I was pregnant!), and I must say, I really missed the occasion. Cup Day & Grand Final day are the two big days I like to let me hair down! Anyway, I have overestimated my points for the day, so although I am over by a lot, I am not too fussed, as I made up for it with exercise. LOVING my xtrainer!!!
Wednesday -30.5pts ( + 10 Bonus Exercise Pts) Have been starving today, and just wanted to eat rubbish - and have absolutely no idea why. Indulged in some lollies & Freddo Frogs! With my zero point vegie soup for dinner I managed to keep my points down, but have no idea what the hell I was doing, especially the day before weigh in!!! And to put a further dampener on things, I got to 49mins on the xtrainer & the bloody belt broke! What the f&ck am I going to do without it until the service guy can get here, which I bet is not until next week! ARGHHHH!!!

:-( Absolutely Shattered!!

Have had a massive gain of 1.4kgs this week. And I am absolutely devestated! What the f*&% went so wrong? I did have a bad weekend, but not THAT bad, and I worked my arse off the last three days to make up for it. Perhaps it could be a combination of not exercising the last week whilst sick, and reducing Aidan's breastfeeds in an attempt to wean him!? Not quite sure what has gone on, but I am not going to wallow in it - I am going to kick arse with a massive weight loss this week!!!
Things to keep on top of this week & moving forward....

• Keep under my daily 30pts, and start lowering my points as Aidan drops feeds
• Post my daily points here on my blog to keep my accountable
• Must not eat my bonus exercise points to increase my weekly weight loss

I've Lost My 7 Year Old Daughter!!!!

A loss of 700gms this week. Not bad after a huge blow out on the weekend (on Saturday I ate & drank about 70pts worth!!), and not much exercise. I have come down with a terrible head cold, and have been unable to exercise the last few days because of it. I tried exercising on Tuesday, and ended up throwing up after a huge coughing fit.... lovely! I gave myself a bit of a break from blogging as I have just been feeling so bloody crap!
Anyway, a total of 21.4kgs gone now, which is about the weight of my 7yo daughter. I am absolutely amazed when I struggle to lift her up to think that is how much heavier I was!! I cannot wait until I have lost my 9yo son who is about 38kgs!!!
As I walked by the computer last night, I saw this photo come up on our photo screen saver. It's in December 2004 at my daughter's 2nd Birthday party. I was so shocked to see it - I honestly never realised I was so huge! It just got me thinking of how far I have come in the last few months, and how my how mental outlook has changed in regards to my health & weight loss. I think of all the crap I have tried in my lifetime to control my weight - Jenny Craig, diet shakes, no carbs diets, Dietitians, Lite & Easy, the list goes on.... - and the ONLY thing that really truly works, and educates you for your lifetime is Weight Watchers! It's just such a fantastic program!!
Every few weeks/months I seem to really notice a change in the clothes I am wearing & how loose everything is becoming. I am having one of those days today where I can really notice the difference in my tummy & legs. I love these days - makes all the hard work worthwhile!

20kgs Gone Forever!!! I did it!!

A great loss of 1.4kgs this week - much better than expected! I am so happy now to have lost 20.7kgs!!! Whoop Whoop!! Absolutely stoked!!!
So, I am currently 112kgs exactly with 47kgs to go to goal! Going to just concentrate on the next 12kgs though, as I soooooo desperately want to be under 100kgs! I think it will feel almost like a "normal" person to be in double digits! Going to work my butt off to try & get there by Christmas - it's a big ask, but I might as well reach for the stars!
The last time I weighed 112kgs was before I fell pregnant with Owen & I had lost over 20kgs on WW, and here I am again!
This week, Hubby & I have a "date" out at Gordon Ramsay's restaurant. We're going there for lunch, and then on the casino for a bit of drinking & gambling. Expecting to eat lots of fatty & rich dishes for lunch, with lots of wine to wash it down, so will be super vigilent on the exercising front this week! Cannot wait!
Onwards & downwards....

Weekly Points Tally

Thursday - 43pts + 6 Bonus Exercise pts ARGH! Indulged in too much wine & Hommus dip today!!! Went over by 7pts, but am determined to make up for it tomorrow!
Friday - 34pts + 12 Bonus Exercise Pts ARGH again! Didn't want to go over my points, but alas, a busy day out & about & a couple of bad food choices. Worked my arse off on the elliptical though, so now have made up for the blowout yesterday! Loving WW & how you can still have your bad days, but just need to find a healthy balance. It's so nice not to be on a diet!!!
Saturday - 34pts + 4 Bonus Exercise Pts Went to a 3rd Birthday party today & made great food choices, but have allocated a massive 15pts for my lunch just because I don't know what the ingredients were. I have definitely over estimated, but better to be safe than sorry!!! Didn't manage much exercise because I am bloody exhausted & need an early night!
Sunday - 42.5pts No exercise today & totally blew my points with wine! We had a gorgeous picnic in the park in the city today with a group of old workmates (Hubby & I were a workplace romance!). Was a sensational day with lots of sunshine! However, when I got home, I really wanted a wine, and then of course after a bottle of wine, exercise was out the window!!!
Monday - 30pts + 6 Bonus Exercise Pts TTOM of the month hit with a bang! Feel like absolute crap, but still managed to get out in the sunshine & take the boys to the local Open Range Zoo & then did a stint tonight on the elliptical.
Tuesday - 28pts + 8 Bonus Exercise Pts Have clawed back those points I went over on Sunday! Wanted to have a really good weight loss this week, but TTOM is making me feel like absolute crap!!!
Wednesday - 32pts + 10 Bonus Exercise Pts Have wanted to eat carbs all day long - don't know what the hell is wrong with me. Tired, and just over having TTOM for some reason. Still managed a great stint on the elliptical. Hoping for a loss tomorrow!!

Ho Hum..... A Bloody Gain!

A gain of 300gms this week. Was expecting it, and I am happy that I have worked my arse off these last few days & turned around what could have been a massive gain. I now have 700gms to get to my 20kgs, and I WILL be getting that goal at my next meeting! Just watch me!
Photo of Hubby & I at an Engagement party last month...

Onwards & downwards.....

Points for this Week

Saturday - 39pts + 9 Bonus Exercise Pts Grand Final day today & I allocated myself 15pts for nibblies, and then skipped dinner cause I was so full. I doubt very much I would have used that many points as I didn't go overboard or eat anything I shouldn't have, but just used up all my exercise points to make up the difference. Going to work my butt off this week to counteract my 2 week holiday!
Sunday - 32pts + 7 Bonus Exercise Pts Got to stop bloody eating over my points each day. I really want my exercise points to be used as a bonus to help me with weight loss, but I keep going over so have to use them - ARGH! Will try harder over the next few days!
Monday - 36pts + 6 Bonus Excerise Pts ARGH did it again - went over my points! I have just been feeling so horrible these last couple of days, and so bloody hungry! I don't know what the hell is going on! Hubby seems to think everyone is grumpy & tired because of Daylight Savings, but I feel there is something more going on. Perhaps TTOM (That Time Of Month) is looming?!
Tuesday - 29pts + 8 Bonus Exercise Pts YAY! Finally did it! Stayed within my 30pts & even did a good stint on the elliptical! Very happy & hope it helps with the gain I am expecting on Thursday! Still feeling really "blargh". Definitely think TTOM is on it's way & also could be that I am exhausted after my fortnight away?!! Hopefully will feel better in the coming days.
Wednesday - 30pts + 12 Bonus Exercise Pts Yay again! Didn't go over my points! Managed to break up my exercise today into 3 lots so I was able to get a heap of exercising done - just find it so bloody hard to find some time for myself during the day!! Have been spring cleaning like crazy today so have not stopped until now. Feeling a bit funny in the tummy, so I definitely know TTOM will be here probably tomorrow - GREAT for weigh in tomorrow morning (not!!!). I am desperately hoping I have done enough this week to avoid a gain - a stay at home would be fantastic, and a tiny loss, even 100gms (not that I dare to expect one) would be unbelievable!

The Holiday is Over!

Home from our 2 week holiday to our Caravan on the Murray. Had an awesome time with great friends who were camping in their tents on the 2 sites beside us. Made me realise, I really never want to camp in a tent - give me a proper inner spring mattress in a caravan any day!!! The days were glorious (above 20deg each day!), and the nights were freezing!! The kids had an absolute ball & spent each day out & about in the fresh air. Was just wonderful, but God, it was so great to come home to our King size bed, and an ensuite!! The toilet block was a bit of a hike!!
Anyway, although I had the very best of intentions, I didn't track & I let my hair down. I stayed away from the ultimate temptation however - potato chips! For that, I am very proud. But I did consume some wine, some cider (something I have just discovered - it's delicious!), and the odd beer now & then. And of course, although I did eat good choices, I overate. I really noticed how huge my portion sizes became by the end of the fortnight.
So, I weighed myself this morning, and it seems like I have put on just under 2kgs. But I am back into it today, so am really hoping I can whittle this down before my official WI at my meeting on Thursday. Got back on the elliptical tonight - God, how I have missed it! Ankle is a bit sore, so only managed 45min, but went a bit harder on it than usual.
Had some friends over for the Grand Final rematch today, and although I did partake a little in the nibblies (good stuff - dolmades, olives, dips for which I allocated 15 points), I was full enough not to eat dinner, and I did not have one sip of alcohol - something that I don't think I have ever done during my adult life on Grand Final day (unless pregnant!).
If I have a gain on Thursday, I'll take it on the chin, and remember that I really did have a great holiday. It's only one little hiccup in my journey! I have the rest of my life to make up for it!!!
Onwards & downwards......

Bugger!

A loss of 700gms this week. Bloody devastated! I worked my arse off this week to lose over a kilo & get to my 20kgs goal. I didn't even have a bloody drink on my Birthday!!! Any other time I am sure I would be happy with this loss, but this week it just falls flat!
Anyway, off to our caravan for 2 weeks from Saturday. I have 2 weeks worth of trackers printed out to take with me, and I am going to try & make it to a WW meeting, although it is really not close by to where we are staying - will see how I go anyway.
Going to exercise a lot to counteract all the drinking I will be doing. One of our friends who is coming away is also on WW, so we will be able to keep each other in line!
Only 400gms to go to reach this 20kgs goal!!
Onwards & downwards....

Points This Week

Thursday - 30.5pts Out for dinner & Bingo with my girlfriends tonight, so unable to do any exercise & God, do I feel guilty!!!! Was a blessing I got home at 10pm, cause I didn't get stuck into the wine like I usually do on Thursday nights!
Friday - 39.5pts + 9 Bonus Exercise Pts Got stuck into some hot chips today - OH MY GOD THEY WERE FANTASTIC!!! From a shop where we used to live that makes THE BEST hot chips with chicken salt. Also, wine, wine & wine! Sooooo, went over my points, but made up for most of it on the elliptical.
Saturday - 47pts + 2.5 Bonus Exercise Pts What a day!! Had 2 kids sleeping over, and had my family over for pizza to celebrate the return of my parents from their 11 week caravaning holiday to Queensland. My brother turned up 40 minutes early whilst I was on the elliptical, so I didn't get to do my exercise to make up for the wine & pizza I knew I was going to consume!! Not happy Jan!
Sunday - 29pts + 12 Bonus Exercise Pts My 38th Birthday today! Hectic day which finished off with a long stint on the elliptical & a lovely dinner of dumplings (WW recipe). Only 2.5pts over for the week now, so will make that up tomorrow no problems!
Monday - 26pts + 8 Bonus Exercise Pts Didn't concentrate on my eating today, so didn't eat very well & didn't eat all my points. Struggled on the elliptical tonight as my foot is giving me extreme pain since seeing the physio. Will book an appointment to get in & see him again ASAP.
Tuesday - 30.5pts + 5 Bonus Exercise Pts Absolutely exhausted tonight. Have been going to bed too late, so it's something I will try & rectify. Hubby is hogging the elliptical tonight, so I only did a small session on it tonight. Was a beautiful day, FINALLY, so spent most of the day in the sunshine - wish I had of thought to take the boys on a bike ride, would have been great exercise for me!
Wednesday - 32pts + 6 Bonus Exercise Pts The day before weigh in is not the ideal day to be going over points, but I have saved up 18 exercise points this week. Was hoping for a good loss to get to my 20kgs goal, but according to my home scales, I think the loss will be a minimal one. Never mind, any loss is a good loss, right! Bugger, just wanted to make that goal before going away for 2 weeks! Took the kids to the drive ins tonight, which usually means lots of crap food, but I snacked on Snakatas & counted out 10 lollies to munch on. I did mean to grab a couple of apples, but forgot! Anyway, didn't have much time for exercise, but must admit felt great on the elliptical today - would have gone on forever if I had the time!

Whoop Whoop!!

A loss of 1.4kgs this week!! I just can't believe that I have been able to turn around my massive weekend & have had a loss. I know I have worked my butt off, but it just didn't seem like it was hard work! I am really enjoying the weight loss & the exercising - it is almost like I am addicted to it!!!
However, I have started to stress about our holiday in a week & a half's time. 2 weeks of no computer access or meetings - ie, no support & no online tracking! I know I usually let myself go easy on holiday & then I struggle to get back into it, so this time I am going to take my scales, print out some tracking sheets, and keep myself in order. Although I know I will go over each day's points with wine, I will have to make sure I go on lots of walks to counter balance it. At least with my scales I can monitor my weight to ensure I don't gain.
My goal for this week is to continue on the elliptical for an hour each day, and I will even try to increase that time if I can. I only have 1.1kgs to get to my 20kg goal! It's my 38th Birthday on Sunday, and it would be a nice birthday present to myself!!!
Onwards & downwards......

Points for This Week

Thursday - 67.5pts + 4 Bonus exercise pts Naughty Thursday got a bit out of control thanks to some wines & 15.5pt chocolate freckle from a local chocolate shop! If only I had of worked out the points before I ate it & not after!
Friday - 28.5pts Too tired today for any exercise, but managed to stay under points.
Saturday - 46.5pts + 4 Bonus exercise pts Over in points thanks to 2 bottles of wine at my school reunion. Got talked into getting a lift & drinking - just like peer group pressure back at school!! haha!
Sunday - 33pts + 8.5 Bonus exercise pts Bloody chocolate freckle again - but only had a 3pt portion, which still put me over my points. Thank heavens for exercise!
Monday - 29.5pts + 12.5 Bonus exercise pts Desperately trying to claw back those points!!!
Tuesday - 28pts + 12.5 Bonus exercise pts Pizza night tonight, but still under points, and exercising like a trojan! Only a little bit over in points for the week now, so hoping I can make that up tomorrow & avoid a gain on Thursday (fingers crossed!)!!
Wednesday - 28.5pts + 12.5 Bonus Exercise Pts I have now made up all the points I went over on the weekend & have 2.5pts saved for the week. TTOM arrived this morning, so I am hoping that doesn't contribute to a gain tomorrow. Fingers crossed!!!!

17.5kgs of Ugly Fat Gone Forever!!!

A loss of 1.9kgs today, making it a total loss of 17.5kgs. Only 50.2kgs to go (God help me!). Seems like a lot when I think of what is in front of me, but it seemed like a lot when I had 67kgs to lose, and look where I am now!!! I am extremely motivated & can really see me getting to goal, and it is sooooo exciting!!!
11 weeks ago I set myself the goal of losing 15kgs before my 20 year school reunion, which happens to be this Saturday night. Unfortunately I didn't reach this goal, however, I have lost a total of 11.6kgs in those 11 weeks! Not bad really!!! Now the big dilemma I have had this week is whether or not to drive to the reunion, or get a lift & drink. BUT, after my weighin this morning, I have decided I am going to drive. I love my wine, but I really don't want to spoil my great work, and although I know I can control myself on Saturday night with snacking whilst drinking, it is the next day when I am hungover that I can't stop eating crap!!! Is it really worth it to have a gain next week? No, I don't think so. So, I have made the decision to drive, and just have one or two wines, and water the rest of the time.
As for the other challenge I have set myself of losing 30kgs before New Year, I have 18.4kgs to go in 17 weeks. Definitely achieveable, but a huge task!
So, for this week, my plan is to continue what I have been doing this week - keeping within my points & using my bonus exercise points if I need to (I confirmed with my WW leader this morning that I was doing this right); keeping up the daily exercising: and keeping up the water intake.
Onwards & downwards.......
P.S. A special thanks to Kath for continuing to support me with your regular comments. Extremely appreciated!!!

This Week's Points

Thursday - 32.5pt + 5.5 Bonus Exercise Pts Went out for dinner tonight (on the spur of the moment), but made good healthy choices. Spent 25min on my beloved elliptical that was fixed today, and 5min on the treadmill (that I find boring as hell!). I am now about to have a few wines, which I have accounted for, and I am happy I am still under points with my bonus exercise points - must be the first time on "naughty" Thursday this has happened!!!
Friday - 32.5pts + 4 Bonus Exercise Pts The head cold that has been lurking all week finally hit with a vengeance this morning! Have felt like shit all day long, but have been extremely hungry for some reason! Managed to get on the elliptical & am off to bed very soon (it's only 8pm!!!). Loving these bonus exercise points that allow me to go over in points!!!
Saturday - 29.5pts + 6.5 Bonus Exercise Pts Have been on a mission to lengthen the time on the elliptical. Eating is excellent, water intake brilliant. VERY motivated!!!
Sunday - 31.5pts + 4 Bonus Exercise Pts So, have eaten over my points a few times this week, but only because I have had the bonus exercise points. Still have 11.5pts saved up of exercise points, but won't be using them! Have (so far) resisted the half a bottle of wine sitting in the fridge door that I left from Thursday night!! Went on a lovely boat cruise of the Yarra River today & had lunch at Southbank. Easy to eat healthy because the kids are crazy about sushi, so that's what we had!! Feeling another early night coming on (after my usual Jarrah hot choc!).
Monday - 33pts + 7.5 Bonus Exercise Pts Went crazy on the elliptical today. Yep. I'm addicted. Think about it all day - when can I get a break from the kids (well, the little one in particular) to get on the elliptical!! Had a massive point blow out with dinner tonight - made a Chicken & Bacon Risotto for 14pts! WTF? Was beautiful, but will NOT be cooking it again!!! Thank God for the exercise points!!!!
Tuesday - 32pts + 4 Bonus Exercise Pts. Seems to be the trend this week of going over my points & eating my exercise points. I don't think I am used to exercising so much, and it is making me extremely hungry!!! Hopefully will be able to control this over the coming weeks.
Wednesday - 34.5pts + 6.5 Bonus Exercise Pts. Had a run in with a banana cake this morning that I had baked last night. Just couldn't resist, but 7pts later!!! So, once again have gone over in my points, although I really tried hard today!! I have to work on reducing my points as once breastfeeding stops, it's bye bye to those bonus 7pts! Gosh, what will I do?!?! Will just have to keep exercising like a Trojan for bonus points!! Fingers crossed for a decent loss tomorrow - will be so disappointed if it is less than a kilo!! By the way, have banked (yes, saved!!!) 20 bonus points this week!! WHOOO HOOOO!! What a change for me instead of going over in points. Very proud of myself, and it's something I am going to have to make sure I do each & every week!

A Small Bump on the Road to Goal....

Disappointed to report a gain of 500gms. How do I feel about it? PISSED OFF, and angry at myself, but I know I deserve it. I have to stop going over points, and then trying ridiculously hard to make up for it in the days that follow. I have to plan my big nights, and stop this vicious cycle! And that's exactly what I have done for tonight - naughty Thursday! I have planned out all my food, and have even included half a bottle of normal white wine, and then a full bottle of my low cal Lindeman's Early Harvest wine. I have even planned for carrot sticks with salsa as a snack, and after exercise, I will have enough points to indulge in a WW ice cream if I feel like it. Makes me happy to have taken the time to plan & be organised, and now I won't have to bust my arse to make up for any points I go over! A proud moment!
So, would I do it again - would I go out & get pissed, and then with a hangover the next day eat a McDonald's feast?!?! No, probably not, but I have to remember it is only one week out of the rest of my life, and although this is a bump on my journey, it has not deterred me in any way. In fact, it has made me more determined to have a big loss this week, and I have learnt that I have to be more accountable with my points! I have to stop this trend of going over points continuously!
So, goals for this week - keep under points, keep up the exercise that is going great guns at the moment, and keep up the water intake (which is also going great).
Onwards & downwards....

This Week's Points

Thursday - 51pts Yep "Naughty Thursday" struck again! Although less points that last Thursday!! This week I asked Hubby to buy me the Lindeman's Early Harvest wine that is only 5.5pts per bottle. Hubby doesn't like it, so he stuck to our regular wine (which is so much nicer), but I thought I would do the right thing! Had a bit of chocolate, nuts & hot chips, but counted all my points! Now to work it off this week!!
Friday - 27pts + 2.5 Bonus exercise pts! Have drank heaps of water today which is a bonus, and although my leg is aching, I spent 30min on the treadmill. About to have a bath with the 2 little ones, and then will be in bed by 9pm. Sad on a Friday night, but I am stuffed after a bad night's sleep last night with my dog barking to be let out (twice) and Aidan waking at 5am due to his molars coming through! Better to have an early night than to snack because of tiredness though!
Saturday - 36.5pts. Really have no accurate total of points for today, as we had an Engagement party to attend, and I thought, Stuff it! I am going to drink & enjoy myself. Was planning on driving, but we don't go out much without the kids (well, hardly ever really), and it is only one day out of my life, so I will enjoy it! And I sure did. I had my hair done at the hairdressers, had a new outfit, and although I may not look slimmer to others, I felt slimmer & more comfortable within myself, and I really enjoyed myself! I stayed away from the deep fried finger food, and drank a few waters in between wines - very proud of myself!
Sunday - 49.5pts. Okay, who the bloody hell knew a McDonalds Double Quarter Pounder was 18 bloody points?!?!?! With my sundae & Fries, my whole Maccas meal ended up being 31.5pts. Good hangover food, but God damn awful stuff! I hate the kids eating that crap, but I really needed it!!! Compensated with a nice vegie stirfry for dinner, but still went over the points for the day in an enormous way! Spent many hours weeding the garden for incidental exercise, so hopefully that combats some of the grease & fat I took on at lunch!!
Monday - 31pts + 3.5 Bonus exercise Pts. Had a run in with Hommus today! Really wanted to be under my points, so I am disappointed in myself. My hamstrings are killing me today after yesterday's hours of weeding, but I still managed 40min on the treadmill, which gave me some bonus points. Still 39pts over for the week - bugger!
Tuesday - 29.5pts + 3.5 Bonus exercise Pts!Pizza night tonight, and I splurged with a salad to share with hubby - yummy rocket, balsamic & parmesan salad which is absolutely delish. Felt like I could have stayed on the treadmill forever tonight - all parts of me are feeling great except for a pain I am getting on the bottom of my bad foot near my toes. Something I will have to speak to the physio about. Still 35pts over for the week, ah well, it was worth it!!
Wednesday - 28.5pts + 2.5 Bonus Exercise Pts! Saw Mary Poppins The Musical with the kids today in the city (which was absolutely brilliant!!) Bought the kids lots of treats (pies for lunch, ice creams & lollies for the show), but I had a salad roll & my WW muesli bar for treat. Have only spent 30min on the treadmill tonight as it was after 9pm by the time I got on it! Hoping for a STS (Stay the Same) at least for tomorrow's weigh in. Will be disappointed if I gain, but I deserve it after the weekend, and am willing to cop it on the chin! 31pts over in total this week... bummer!

52 Weeks on WW (This Time Around)!!

It's now my 52nd week on WW, not counting the weeks I was absent. So 52 full weeks of attempting to lose weight! Works out I have lost an average of 200gms per week. Pretty pitiful, but better than nothing!
I had a loss of 1kg this week. Was disappointed this morning to be weighing over half a kilo heavier than I did yesterday morning, but such is life! Hubby actually gained 200gms this week, and was devastated. He has been working so very hard, but I think it may be his body is in a bit of shock from all the exercise, so he should have a decent loss next week!!
I'm finding it just so easy at the moment to make good food choices & everything is really going along well. God, I just hope it lasts! At this morning's meeting my WW leader Liz (who is just so sensational!) talked about "WHY?" we are doing this, and suggested that we write down some of our reasons "WHY?". She asked us if we could imagine that moment stepping on the scales & the girls saying to us "Congratulations, you've hit goal!". It sent a huge shiver down my spine! I can see it! I can feel it! I will do this!
I know I did this many years ago, but here is a fresh new list of reasons WHY I want to lose weight & get to my goal:-

• I want to be healthy & fit & live a long life
• I want to set a good example for my 4 darling children
• I want to look & feel good
• I want to be able to walk into any shop & buy clothes off the rack, and have a cupboard bursting full of nice clothes, not just clothes that fit & cover up my bulges!
• I want to wear sexy lingerie & pretty bras, and matching sets of underwear!
• I want my husband to look at me & think I am gorgeous & sexy
• I want to feel confident
• I want to ease the stress on my bad ankle

Onwards & Downwards..........

Continuing Being Accountable

I found it an enormous help last week to post my points totals every day. I think it keeps me in line. Of course, Thursdays are my "naughty" day of the week, and I think they will continue to be. It's the day I can indulge & the day I look forward to all week!

Thursday - 59pts Yep, WTF?!?! I had too much wine, and then indulged in cashews & almonds. I have over estimated on the points values (because I did not weigh the nuts!) but I will make up for it. Would rather over estimate & work harder to counteract it, than underestimate & put on weight!!! Must remember on "naughty" day to weigh everything!
Friday - 31pts Had some people over & made my delicious banana cake. Of course, by the end of the day, I had 2 slices (10pts)! ARGH! Wanted to be under points today, but will get exercising the next few days to make up some points. Elliptical should be fixed by the end of NEXT week now!
Saturday - 27.5pts Ate both brekkie & lunch out - at the same place - how funny! But it is my fav cafe across the road from the ballet studio. I made excellent choices & am finding it so much easier to just pick the right meals - it's like it's second nature now to go for the low fat alternative!
Sunday - 26.5pts + 2 bonus exercise points!! Made an effort & spent half an hour on the treadmill, much to the protest of my ankle! The elliptical is much easier on it - cannot wait until it is fixed! Have been super good this weekend with my food & resisted wine, much to the disdain of my hubby, who has called me boring (or something along those lines)!!!
Monday - 31pts + 2.5 bonus exercise points! ARGH went over my points in a major way at lunch today. Who would have thought bloody cous cous was so high in points?!?! Greg made a lovely cous cous mixed with left over roast veg from last night & chickpeas, peas & beans, but I should have weighed it before I ate it!! I am still 20 points over for the week, but hopefully can reel that in a bit more over the next 2 days!
Tuesday - 27.5pts + 3 bonus exercise points!! Pizza night & stuck to my 2 slices! Was hard to begin with because I was sooooo hungry, but I drank so much water it filled me up. Got on the treadmill later in the night & did the unbelievable - I ran!!! I just felt so good & was walking so fast, I thought "stuff it" and tried out running. Now, let's just remember that I was told by the doctors I would never be able to do things like running ever again in my life, so this was just the most astonishing thing - to be able to run! Sure, I looked like a complete idiot, as my ankle doesn't bend in a normal way enabling me to take a normal stride, but at least I can do it (and it's not something I would do in public anyway!). Hubby came in at one stage when he heard me running, and I had to stop as I was laughing so hard!! The look on his face was absolutely priceless - absolute shock! Anyway, still 15pts over for the week. Will be able to make up a few of the points today but not 15 unfortunately!
Wednesday - 29.5pt + 2 bonus exercise points! Made some a yummy WW soup of Curried Cauliflower & Lentil for dinner. Just devine! Caught up with some girlfriends & took along a box of the WW choc eclairs (1.5pts each). Delish, although doesn't compare in size or taste to a real one with lovely fresh cream - YUM! Had to have two of course, but still came under points for the day! Have ended up being 12.5pts over for the week. Something I am going to have to watch this next week - I want to stay within points, so that is the goal I am setting myself!

Holy Shit Batman!!!

A loss of 2.3kgs this week! WTF??!?!? Better than I could have hoped for! Hit my 10% goal again, as well as my goal of 15kgs in total lost - WHOOO HOOOOO! Going to have to keep sticking within my points if I am to continue getting results like this! Well on the way to my 30kgs by Christmas goal!!
Feeling so good within myself, and very in control!
Onwards & downwards.....

Keeping Accountable for My Points

Points Totals for This Week -
Thursday - 47pts (eeeek!!!) Over by 17pts because of my 7pts on wine, and 10pts I splurged on bloody Chocolate Chip Cookies - they were apparently 1pt for each cookie, and I didn't even really like them! The good news is the cookies are all gone, and they will not be replaced!!! Now I am going to have to work hard to make up for it the rest of the week!!
Friday - 31pts Bugger, went over by 1!! I am supposed to be making up for the blowout on Thursday, but had a bottle of wine (7pts) - would have had heaps to save if I didn't. However, no more wine now for the weekend & going to attempt some exercise today. Should be a good points Saturday!
Saturday - 27.5pts Yay! Saved 2.5pts today. Spent over 30min exercising on the WiiFit - such fun & a great way to work up a sweat! Couldn't find on the WW website the amount of exercise points the Wii would be, so I estimated 2 pts for 30min - meaning I now have only 13.5pts to make up! My ankle is doing okay - just my heel spur in my good foot giving me grief (thanks for asking Kath!!)
Sunday - 28.5pts
Monday - 30pts Was going to make up some bonus exercise points tonight on the elliptical, but hubby has just broken it!!! Talk about a crisis for me!!! Will be on the phone to the fitness equipment shop first thing in the morning to get someone out to fix it!!!
Tuesday - 27pts Have placed a service call on the elliptical & it should be fixed by the end of the week (fingers crossed). Have also seen my physio & have new orthotics in my new runners & feel like I could run a million miles! YAY!! Went out for our usual Tuesday night pizza, and I only had TWO slices!! I usually eat 4-6 pieces, but was so impressed with myself, and don't even feel hungry!!
Wednesday - 24pts Really did not eat enough points today, but was a hectic day & resulted in me first forgetting to eat brekkie, so had that very late, and then because of the late brekkie, I forgot to eat lunch!!! ARGH! Anyway, resulted in me saving lots of points, and means I have gone over my points by a total of 5 for the week. This is excellent for me, especially considering last week I was over by 38 points!!!!

Under 120kgs - AGAIN! YAY!

Weigh in today saw a loss of 1.2kgs. Was hoping for more, but really, that's just being ridiculous! Thankfully now I have hit my first goal (yet again!) of going under 120kgs. However, it means I have dropped a point & now have 30pts a day on the WW program. Don't know what I will do when I finish up breastfeeding & drop a whole 7pts! How do people survive on 18pts a day!??!? What do they eat - dust!??!!? Think I will have to turn vegetarian & give up bread (my favourite thing!) if I ever get under 20pts a day!!! Oops, shouldn't say IF I ever, should say, WHEN I get under 20pts a day!
Feeling really good & in the right head space still. Hope this continues on as I really want to get under 100kgs at the end of the year. I am really noticing the difference already in my clothes - and my boobs have shrunk - I mean REALLY shrunk!! But I also think Aidan is starting to wean himself by drinking less, so that could also be contributing.
This week I am going to blog my points total for each day, as it is a continuing habit of mine to constantly go over points every few days - something I am getting away with at the moment, but there will come a time when I just won't lose because of it! So, if I am accountable here, maybe I will be more careful about my point intake!
Having severe problems this week with my leg. I am having constant sharp shooting pains from my ankle to me knee. Greg accidentally sat on my leg on Sunday, and at the time, I felt the pain right at the bone break site. Can't get in to see my physio until Tuesday, so will just have to ease up on the exercise (which I was going great guns at!) and keep icing it, until then. My heel spur in my good foot seems to have flared up again - oh joy! I often wonder what it would be like to be able to walk without pain now I have been doing it for 5 years! And just to be able to chuck on any pair of shoes when going out would be wonderful. I have to stop & think about where I will be going, how far I will be walking, etc etc, as I can only walk a fair distance in my runners - something that doesn't look all that good when you are dressed nicely. And don't even get me started on shoes with heels - how I look longingly at anything with a heel & remember those days of feeling so feminine in a nice pair of heels! AND I could also go on about skirts & 3/4 length pants that show ankles - can't wear them now with my deformed & swollen ankle. Sob, sob, sob.....
Anyhow, going to have a great week this week & a great loss! I am determined! And posting my daily points WILL keep me accountable & on track!!
Onwards & downwards......

The Breakfast From Point Hell!

Saturday morning I had a lovely sleep in - if you can call being woken at 6am, then breastfeeding a monster til 7am, then dozing until 8am a sleep in! Anyway, I was awoken by the smell of bacon cooking... lovely. Hubby had cooked a huge fry up. I enjoyed it immensely! However, it wasn't until later that night when I sat down to work out the points, that I nearly died of a heart attack!!!

1 English muffin - 2pts
WW Canola spread on muffin - 0.5pts
3 rashers bacon, no fat - 4pts
1 1/2 eggs with skim milk scrambled - 3.5pts
2 hash browns - 4pts
Tomato Sauce - 0.5pts
2 skim milk coffees - 3pts
Orange juice - 2.5pts
Total Points for brekkie - 20 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It was fantastic, but never again will I eat it before I work out the points! What the hell was he thinking dishing me all that up!??! And what the hell was I doing eating it all!?!

Luckily I had a small lunch & dinner to compensate & still had 1.5pts spare at the end of the day!!

A Great Big Swift Kick Up the Bum!

Gain of a kilo this week. So disappointed in myself, but I saw it coming! I was lazy - no tracking, no exercise & not much water! The tracking is the killer though - I eat far too much if I don't keep track of how many points everything that goes into my mouth is!
So, although devestated, I am glad I gained. It is definitely the kick up the arse I need!!! Going to work my arse off this week to lose this kilo and extra as a bonus. No excuses!!
So, goals (again!!!) - water, exercise & bloody tracking, which is the most important of the three!!!
Onwards & downwards!

An Undeserved Loss!

A terrible weekend! Yes, you guessed it, I gave into bloody wine again! Why, oh why, oh why do I keep doing this to myself! Anyway, I thankfully had a loss of 800gms this week, which keeps me on target for my Xmas challenge. I secretly wish I had of gained, so that it would have given me a kick up the bum for being so cocky & complacent in thinking that I could have a bad weekend & a loss to follow!!!
Anyway, one good thing has come of this week. Hubby has gotten his act together! I was waiting for the penny to drop with him, and Thank God, it finally has! We are looking at a holiday to Malaysia again towards the end of next year, and I have told him in no uncertain terms that I WILL NOT be going if I am a big fatty boombah!! He has been on the xtrainer this week & I am so happy I will not be tempted by him anymore! YAY!!
I am now 120.1kgs. Only 200gms to go & I will be back under 120kgs - CANNOT WAIT! The downside is I lose a point on the WW plan! However, I really can see my Xmas goal in reach! I will do it! I can do it!! Exciting times ahead!!!
Onwards & downwards......

On a Roll to Lose These Rolls.....

1kg loss this week, which takes my overall loss to 11.8kgs. I feel like such a fake, as I have lost this weight before! Why on earth do I keep gaining it back & then having to relose it!?!?! NEVER AGAIN! I am never going back!
Anyway, I am well on target for my 2010 challenge. I have lost 5.9kgs in the last 4 weeks, so well on my way to losing 30kgs by Christmas - only 24.1kgs to go in 24 weeks! A big ask, but I can bloody well do it!! I will try my absolute hardest!!!
As for the last week, must admit I haven't been perfect. Had a few wines on a couple of nights, when I had resolved myself to only have wine once a week. The husband has been a terrible influence, and I think he can see it in his own weight loss results (he had a loss of a 100gms this week!). The problem is definitely not the wine - the problem is I just cannot stop eating whilst drinking wine!!! So once a week is definitely a good choice for me!
TTOM also arrived on Monday, so I did sneak a few of party sized chocolates. Don't know why I have said "sneak" - I was honest with myself & tracked it! So, overall it was an okay week. I went over points a couple of times & didn't exercise due to the pain with my heel spur in my good foot, so I am happy with the kilo loss. I've also just worked out that I have lost 17.4% of the overall amount I need to lose! Not too shabby!!
Have just been shopping & bought myself some new Asics runners, so will attempt the xtrainer today to see how my foot goes.
Onwards & downwards......

I Can Do It!!!

I can do this! I will do this!!
I was derailed by my "well meaning" husband who brought home some wine on the weekend. Also I ate a WHOLE medium pizza on Tuesday night whilst catching up with my girlfriends as well! I am still not at the stage were I can stop eating when I am full - something I am really working on! However, I got straight back in the saddle and back on track!! And the proof is in the pudding - a loss of 1.3kgs this week. Have now lost 10.8kgs (yet again!) but this time I will be keeping it off - I am NEVER going back!!! I can see my Xmas goal in reach (of being under 100kgs) and I am bloody well going to get there! Just watch me!

Week 45!!!

Eeeeekkkk... 45 weeks this time on Weight Watchers! BUT, at least I keep going back & will stick with it until the end!
A loss of 400gms this week. Only a little loss, but I am extremely happy with it, especially since I weighed the same as last week on my home scales! I spent a few days away with the kids, and although I wasn't naughty, I wasn't tracking my points, and wasn't 100% strict with myself. So, I am definitely pleased a loss showed! Back into it 100% today!
Nothing much else to report this week. It's FREEZING cold, and school holidays too, which I absolutely love! I love lazy mornings with the kids, and days spent at home in our PJs! And the good thing about winter time & the cold weather, is it is so easy to enjoy nice warm soups a few times a week!!!
Onwards & downwards....

Goodbye Gastro!

Hubby woke through the night with gastro! Oh joy! Only my daughter has escaped it with just mild tummy pains! Lucky thing!
Weigh in today & I had a loss of 3.2kgs. Initially I was disappointed, as yesterday my home scales showed over 5kgs lost with the gastro! However, I have not been to the toilet (if you know what I mean) since Monday, so I guess that could have been the difference today. It wasn't until I got home that I realised what an awesome start that is to the goal I have set to September. That leaves only 11.8kg to go!!! Absolutely achievable!
Have had a shit day at home, especially with Aidan being very demanding. I am still breastfeeding, but REALLY over it! Have been trying to feed him up on diary as I start to wean him. He just hardly eats anything & prefers breast milk, but I really want my life back!!! It's going to be a long hard struggle with him, but I am so ready!
Onwards & downwards.....

Goals for the Remainder of 2010

Forgot to mention in my previous post the 2 extremely hard goals I have set myself. Might as well aim for the stars! I have my 20 year High School reunion at the beginning of September, and I will lose15kgs before then! A week later I go on holidays for 2 weeks, but then when I return from holidays, I will lose another 15kgs before Christmas! That means I have 26 weeks (not counting the 2 weeks I am away on holidays) to lose 30 kilos. Easy!!! (yeah right!) As long as I keep my head where it is now, I will be cruising (and as long as I keep off the bloody wine!).

A Looooooong Week!

Oh God, what an extremely long week it has been!
I have been super fantastic with my WW this week, and only had a drink on one occasion - dinner at my Mum & Dad's on Sunday night with the whole family. I was even a really girl good & bought a new wine advertised in the WW magazine - Lindemans Early Harvest. I saw it in the mag months ago, but my local bottleshops have only just got it in stock. It's low cal & low alcohol, but it's nice, and a good change from the Yellowglen Jewel range (also low cal & low alcohol), which I was really tiring of. Lindemans also do a sparkling which is nice & light.
Anyway, things have been going great, and bang, after dinner Sunday night Owen starts vomiting. Then Monday morning at 3am I wake with the runs, and the vomiting follows not long after. Later Monday afternoon Aidan starts with the vomiting. Oh joy! Tuesday, just when I thought he was better, Owen gets the runs! It is now Wednesday, I am still a bit queasy, Owen has recovered, Aidan still has the runs & now Callum has the runs. Paige had just come home early from school with tummy pains. Fortunately it seems to have passed Greg by. Would be terrible for him to be sick in his first week at a new job!!
The one upside of the whole saga is I am going to have a brilliant loss at WI tomorrow. I was doing so well anyway that I knew the loss would be a good one, but this has just given it a huge boost. Not something I would wish on anyone for weight loss though!!!
It's nice to know that things have finally clicked & I am back into WW with gusto. I committed to get there! Even if there are hiccups on the way, I will win!
Onwards & downwards......

The Little Engine That Could!

Well, I am OVER it! Finally the penny has dropped, and I am over being fat! I am over looking at myself in the mirror & being horrified at what I have become. Enough is bloody enough! It's time!
Driving on the way to my WW meeting this morning, I was thinking of myself as "The Little Engine That Could". As long as I keep trying & persisting, I will get there one day! A spectacular gain of 3.9kg this morning, meaning a total of 9.8kg gained in 3 months! It's amazing how completely off the rails both hubby and I went as soon as we learned of his redundancy at work. Looking back at my last post on this blog, it seems I had an inkling that I would turn to wine & chocolate to cope, and sure enough, I did with a vengeance!

The good news is that hubby has a new job, and he starts this Monday!!!

Another Goal Reached! 15kgs Lost (AGAIN)!!!

Made my next goal for 2010 - 15kgs gone. Of course, I had hit this goal last year before we went to Malaysia!!
700gms lost this week. Expected a bit more, but with my weekend blowouts, I am thankful I am having regular losses.
I really have to try & stay focussed and not lose track this week. We have just found out this morning that hubby's job is being made redundant & he finishes up at the end of April. Just a major upheaval when the bread winner of the family is jobless! My maternity leave is up next month, so if worse comes to worst, I can always go back to work (I was initially going to resign & not go back!). Hopefully I won't get stressed and turn to wine & chocolate to cope!!!!
Anyway, onwards & downwards....

Disappointed!!

A loss of 800gms this week. I should be happy, but I cannot help but feel soooo disappointed! I have been working so very very hard. Exercising every day, saying no to wine, counting my points, drinking water. I know TTOM (That Time of Month) is looming, so I feel bloated, but I was expecting a bigger loss!!
Anyway, will attempt to shake this feeling off! Have had a great week, so will continue it & stay "in the zone" so that next week's will be a ripper of a loss!
Unfortunately feel like I am coming down with a cold, so hope it doesn't derail me in any way.
Onwards & downwards......

3.1kgs Whooooo Hooooo!!

Fantastic loss of 3.1kgs this week! I am absolutely stoked! Looks like all my hard work paid off!!! Just gotta keep it up!
So, my next 2 goals were achieved - under 120kgs (again!), and 10% body weight lost (yet, again!!). My next few goals are 15kgs lost, 20kgs lost & under 110kgs. I'm on a mission!!!!
Had a beautiful dinner out last night with 4 of my girlfriends. The yummy green curry looked superb (and yes, I had to have a taste!), but I was a good girl & had a grilled calamari salad for entree, and stir fried beef & vegies for my main meal. Both were yummy, but the calamari was definitely the best calamari I have ever tasted - it just melted in my mouth!! So nice to be able to eat out & make good food choices!!!
Anyway, this week I want to continue what I am doing, but closely monitor my wine intake on the weekend - I really want to stay within my points!!
Onwards & downwards......

On Track for a Loss...

Have had a great week! Went well & truly over points on the weekend, but have been working my butt off to make up for it this week. My 4 goals for this week have been nearly achieved....

1. Track - I have tracked every morsel that has been consumed! Even if I tasted something, or nibbled on something, I have tracked it! Even when I ate well over my daily points, I tracked it!
2. Water, water, water - I have been trying to get into the habit of taking my water bottle with me everywhere, and now I miss it if it is not with me!
3. Exercise daily - Have been building up my stamina on the xtrainer each day. I began last week with only being able to do a 3min stint at a time, and I pleased that I have just jumped off the xtrainer a couple of minutes ago, and have done 12mins in one stint! I can't wait until I can build it up to 30mins in one hit, instead of having to do little bits throughout the day!! Didn't exercise on Sunday as we had a huge walk around the Zoo, and I don't think my ankle would have been able to withstand it!
4. Get off the bloody wine!!! - My biggest struggle this week without a doubt. Succumbed over the weekend (which is where I blew my points), but have not had a drop of it during the week, which is amazing. Nothing is better than sitting down with a nice cold white wine once all the kids are in bed!

I must say I am noticing that I moving a lot more now that I have to be dressed & ready to take the kids to school by 8.30am. When hubby did the morning school drop off the last few years, I would sometimes still be in my PJs at midday!!! Now I am up & at 'em, and just feel so much more energised. And I get so much more done during the day! It's brilliant!!!!Have dinner out tonight with some girlfriends at a local Thai restaurant. Will be steering away from any rice or heavy dishes!Will report in with tomorrow's weigh in - fingers crossed for a great result!

Onwards & downwards......

This Is It!

Feeling really motivated & on the ball today! Have planned my food for the day, and will not stray at all. Have been repeating to myself all day that I only need food to fuel this body of mine, and it is time I started taking care of this "vessel" - especially for the sake of my ankle. The pain is not going to improve unless I lose weight to ease the burden on it.
Had a discussion with the hubby last night, about how one day soon the kids are going to be embarrassed when I come to school activities. I don't want to be the fattest mum there, and I dread the day that one of the kids asks me not to attend something!
It's definitely time!
Anyway, off to jump onto the eliptical trainer whilst Aidan is napping!
Looking forward to an amazing loss this week!
Onwards & downwards!

New Year, New Start, New Goals

Thanks to Shelley who posted a comment on my last blog entry. She simply posted "Where are you?". Those 3 simple words gave me a lightbulb moment & the kick in the bum I needed to get my head back into it!
9 or so weeks away from WW, and 5kgs gained...... eeeekkkk!! That's what happens when you are on holiday and not watching what you are eating & drinking!!! We had a lovely Christmas, although we did have major issues with my Mother In Law, which put a dampener on things!
Anyhow, eating & drinking (which then leads to more eating) have been out of control of late - my silly season has just continued well & truly for too long!!
Things have been crazy & emotional with the older two kids starting at a new school. The last couple of years we kept them at the school in our old suburb, which meant an hour long round trip in the afternoons to pick them up & bring them home (hubby did the morning run on his way to work). But by the end of last year, I was fed up with it, so got them in a local Catholic school 3 minutes drive away. Callum has settled really well into Grade 3, but Paige is not so comfortable in Grade 2, and it's breaking my heart. I know things will get better with time, but it is a struggle at the moment emotionally.
Aidan has finally started walking, and is just so damn cute, although his high pitched squealing is absolutely doing our heads in. Owen is just adorable and growing bigger & cheekier each day!
Okay, back to weight loss. I weighed in at my meeting this morning to a hefty 121.9kgs. And I am OVER IT! I have got to get this bloody weight off once & for all! We've decided to go back to Club Med in Malaysia in October (we just can't help ourselves - it was the BEST holiday ever!!!), so I will set myself a nice goal for that trip!
Just re-reading my blog & I can see that hubby and I set ourselves a challenge back in December of 20kgs in 30 weeks. Well, I think that lasted for a week! Will have to do up a new spreadsheet & stick it on the fridge. I am so determined to do this!!!
Sooo, my goals for this week are:

1. Track
2. Water, water, water
3. Exercise daily
4. Get off the bloody wine!!!!

Tune in next week for a great loss! I am GOING TO DO IT! It's my time now!!!

Onwards & downwards.....

Clawing My Way Back...

My goodness! Can't believe I haven't posted since September!! So much has happened!!
Firstly, I went in a downwards spiral a couple of weeks before we left for Malaysia. I just slipped into "holiday mode", so WW went out the window. We then spent a glorious 10 nights away at Club Med, Cherating Beach in Malaysia! We had the best holiday of our lives! The kids had an absolute ball! I can recommend Club Med to anyone - we were very spoilt! The food & drink was all inclusive, so needless to say we got our money's worth!!!
After the trip, we headed to our van in Cobram for a long Melbourne Cup Weekend. It was sensational weather, so more drinking & eating to be done! And a nice gain of 3.7kgs for me when I returned to WW!!!
I have been struggling terribly to try & get back on track, but it has been extremely hard. Especially now the "silly season" and all the festivities have arrived! But slowly & surely I am getting there, and am now only a kilo from where I was before Malaysia.
So, hubby and I have set ourselves a new goal - 20kgs in 30 weeks. It will take us into June 2010, and I'll be under 100kgs by then, which has always been my ultimate goal. I really wanted to be at that goal by the Christmas, but obviously I have been enjoying my life (and food & wine!!) too much. I'll get there eventually, no matter how long it takes!
Also, Aidan turned one! Where has my baby gone??!?!? I'm still breastfeeding, but I did controlled crying with him when we returned from Cobram, and he now sleeps right through the night without a feed, or coming into our bed. BLISS!!!
Anyways, onwards & downwards...

A Loss - THANK GOD!!

Oh, I am so thankful that I had a loss this week!!! 300gms... not much, but better than a gain! I had a terrible weekend & ONCE AGAIN went over my points on both days in a massive way. It is a cycle I really have to break, and I WILL break it!
In the 21 weeks I have been following WW, I have lost 15.5kgs... an average of about 800gms a week - not too bad at all!!!
What did I eat that was so terrible on the weekend? Nothing that stands out to me, except for 3 cookies bought from Costco on Sunday - I had to try ALL three flavours. Wasn't satisfied with just a taste, had to eat the WHOLE big jumbo cookie! I just wasn't really concentrating on my tracking, so went over in points massively. When I weighed myself Monday morning, I was 1.6kgs heavier!! I worked my butt off on the treadmill & elliptical, until my ankle gave way.
Anyway, on a mission this week for a big loss. I have 7.2kgs to lose in 5 weeks before Malaysia, so need a couple of big losses to help me achieve this goal. And you know, that 100kgs by Christmas is certainly looking promising!!
Onwards & downwards...........

15kgs of Ugly Fat Gone Forever - Whoo Hooooo.....

A brilliant loss of 2kgs this week! Whoop Whoop! Total loss = 15.2kgs. I am feeling fantastic & just can't wait for the weeks to come to lose more & more & more! That 100kgs goal by Christmas is in reach!!

In "The Zone"

I don't know what has come over me, but I am REALLY in "the zone" at the moment! And I don't want it to end!!!!! Hopefully it won't for a while yet. I just wanted to write in my blog today (as I usually just post on Thursdays which are my weigh in days), because IF I become derailed, I want to be able to look back & inspire myself to keep going!
I had a wardrobe cleanout, and tried everything on. And have a bag of clothes to take to the op shop that are too big for me! OH JOY!! I have kept one pair of size 26 pants to remind me of what I do not want to wear ever again!! My size 18 jeans I used to wear even fit me again (albiet a little bit tightly!).
And I just feel so much lighter. Although I have had a tough week with sick kids & not enough sleep (so my eyes are hanging out my head!), I just feel terrific! I am sure I have a spring in my step!
And, I am not sure if I have admitted it before in my blog or not, but..... "My name's Julie and I am a serial weigher!". Yes, I have to weigh myself daily! And nightly!! Every morning when I get up & every night before I go to bed, I jump on the scales to see how I am going. Now, according to many Weight Watchers, it is a cardinal sin to have "sneaky" weigh ins, but I think it helps me along the way. If I have had too many carbs, or too much food in general, it shows on the scales! And when the numbers are showing a loss, it spurs me on to keep going. When the numbers are showing a gain, it spurs me on to get my arse into gear & step it up a notch. Surely, that has to be a good thing?!?!?
And speaking of sneaky weighing, this morning I weighed 116.2kgs on my home scales! WHOOO HOOO!! I have not been that light for an eternity (well about 18mths anyway!). I can usually expect a 1.5kg gain on the WW scales from that (with brekkie, clothing & shoes), so that would mean about 117.7kgs - still a loss of over a kilo. Let's hope I still weigh that in the morning! Fingers crossed!

Battling the Inner Demons & Goal 6 Achieved!

I had a HUGE weekend! We had a Trivia Night on Saturday night - our first childless night out together as a couple since Aidan was born!! I was prepared with carrot sticks, almonds & Pepsi Max. Had enough points also for a couple of glasses of wine, which I thoroughly enjoyed. However, once we arrived home, MORE wine, and of course, then I had to eat! NINE Ferrero Rochers later, and I had doubled my points for the day. They are 2 points EACH!! And I don't even really like them!!
On Sunday we had friends over for a BBQ, and I had my low joule champers (God Bless Yellowglen Jewel!! - 4.5pts for the whole bottle!), and had a bit too much of the dips & bread, but my downfall was not tracking!!!
Come Monday, I battled with those inner demons! In the past, I would have given in to temptation, and thought "stuff it". I would have usually written off the whole week because of a bad couple of days, and started afresh after weigh in on Thursday. Monday afternoon I remember standing infront of the kitchen pantry, cup of coffee in one hand, and the box of Ferreros in the other. My thinking was that I had to eat the other 11 of them so that I wouldn't be tempted by them anymore!!! What the f***?? It was the HARDEST thing for me to put them back in the cupboard!! I made up my mind to stay on track, work that little bit harder, and minimise any gain I would have at weigh in.
And the proof is in the pudding. At my meeting this morning, I had a loss of 200gms! Unbelieveable! And I have now reached my 10% goal!! 200gms was all I needed!!! WHOOOO HOOOOO! Just goes to show how being overweight is such a mental problem. I overcame those demons this week, and I know they will rear their ugly heads ALL THE TIME, but I am strong enough to battle through, and get to goal! I feel like I am on cloud nine!!!
Until next week.....Onwards & downwards...

My 13 Week Malaysia Challenge

As previously mentioned, 5 weeks ago I told hubby that our trip for Malaysia was going to be cancelled unless I lost some weight. I set myself the goal of losing 17.2kgs in 13 weeks - a big challenge, but you may as well reach for the stars!!! Have just been updating my spreadsheet, and I am happy to report that I am still 700gms in front of the target I set for myself. I have 9.7kgs to lose in 8 weeks - EASY if I set my mind to it!!! Malaysia, here I come at 110kgs!!!

Goal #5 Achieved! 13kgs Gone

I was quite shocked to weigh in this morning at my meeting & have a loss of 1.2kgs. The last weekend was a blow out in points for me. I had cheesecake, chocolate cake & some wine, and went well over my points both Saturday & Sunday. I did however track everything, so I knew I had to be super good the rest of the days.

I have now lost a grand total of 13kgs. I have hit my 5th goal of getting under 120kgs. My next goal is my 10% loss (13.2kgs) so only have 200gms to reach that, which I WILL do next week! I am feeling so positive & fantastic, and my clothes are starting to get looser!

We've spent a small fortune on some new fitness equipment after the treadmill died last week - we have a new treadmill, and an elliptical trainer being delivered & installed tomorrow! Hubby and I cannot wait! It's been a long week without exercise (but a good rest for my ankle!). Pictures of our new babies above!!

Onwards & downwards!!!

11.8kgs Gone, 55.9kgs to Go.....

Had a great loss this week of 1.1kgs. Things are going really well, and I am feeling really in control of everything. As long as I keep tracking my points, I will be fine!
I had some thoughts during the week about revising my goal weight to 75kgs. Hubby had suggested that once I was at this weight, I could look at getting the boob reduction/lift I wanted, which would probably shed an extra 10kgs from me to get to the WW goal weight. Think I will just stick with the 65kgs, and we'll see how it goes when I get closer to it.
Had one major blow out last Thursday night. I had a couple of glasses of wine, and as usual, I can't stop eating once the wine hits my lips!! Made up for it in the following days, but this has happened 2 weeks running now, and it has to stop!!
I bought a WW pedometer at last week's meeting. My leader has a pedometer challenge running in the group, and I was shocked to total up my last week's efforts to see I had walked over 35kms without even trying! I now wear my pedometer all day every day. I clip it to my pajamas when I get out of bed first thing in the morning.
Unfortunately our treadmill died last night! ARGH, I am devastated, as I don't know what I will do without it. I paid a visit to Workout World this afternoon, but there were so many treadmills to choose from, and I didn't have appropriate footwear on, so we'll return on Sunday with our runners on & make a purchase. It will be nice to have a brand new "fandangle" treadmill, instead of our old Asian eBay cheapy.
Have my MIL's 60th Birthday party this weekend. It starts at 2pm, with roast dinner at 5pm (talk about dragging it out!), so for 3 hours there will be nibbles & dips - will have to make sure that I steer clear. Might even pack myself a container of carrot sticks to munch on.
Until next week.... onwards & downwards....

My New Baby!!!

10kgs now gone, so I thought I had better reward myself. What better way, than with a new bike! And it's beautiful!!! On Saturday I hooked up the kiddie trailer with Owen in the back & off we went. Callum joined us for the ride as well. It's been over 8 years since I was on a bike, and God, I enjoyed it!!!

10kgs Gone Forever!

Loss of 800gms this week, and I have hit my 10kg goal. YAY! I had a blowout on Friday night with a family dinner here, consisting of pizza & wine, so I am extremely happy that my hard work in the days afterwards has paid off!
I managed to get on the treadmill the last 2 days. A slow start to exercising that I hope I can maintain.
Goals for this week - keep exercising, watch my water intake (I have been slipping a bit), and add some fruit to my diet. I am great at eating lots of vegies, but don't really eat fruit during the winter - something I will try hard to amend this week.
Onwards & downwards......

French Maid Outfits

My girlfriend and I have joked for many years about how we will lose all our weight, then have an enormous party to celebrate & dress as French Maids. Well, we are both on very different weight loss journeys, but we have agreed to have a joint 40th party, and yep, you guessed it, we will dress as French Maids. We have both set ourselves the goal of hitting 100kgs by Christmas, and then we will reset a goal for Easter, and so on, until 2012 when we will have the mother of all parties! A great incentive to have someone (other than hubby) to share my weightloss with.

Bugger, 100gms Short of Goal!

I was sooooo sure I was going to hit my 10kgs lost goal today. I headed off to my meeting, armed with my bookmark (for my 10kg Star!!), only to miss it by 100gms! Bugger! Shouldn't have had the 3 cups of coffee this morning & a big bowl of cereal!!! Never mind, will reach it next week & blow it out the water!
Have had a fantastic week with tracking & water, although I did go over a couple of points on a couple of days, but I don't think it mattered much considering how much Aidan is feeding lately (mainly during the night I might add - NOT happy Jan!). I attempted the treadmill once, but my ankle was terrible - reminder to self to get to the Physio!! Will attempt more exercise this week for sure.
Anyhow, not much else has happened for the week. Have applied for passports for the 4 kids & myself (nearly died at how expensive it was for 5 passports!!) for Malaysia in October - CANNOT wait! Only 11 weeks & 12.8kgs to go before we head off!!
Hubby is doing FANTASTIC with his weight loss, and I can already notice a huge difference after 2 weeks. He is on the treadmill every night, and even RUNNING on it! I'm so proud of him!
Onwards & downwards..........

On a Roll!!!

WOW, Cannot believe I haven't posted since April!!! So much has happened in the last few months! Firstly, I stupidly decided (after missing a couple of meetings due to Aidan having a couple of ear infections, and also Owen having a cold & tonsillitis) that I would be able to do WW Online & weigh in at home by myself. I KNOW that I cannot stick to it when I try to go it alone, so I don't know what came over me. Of course, my heart wasn't it, so I stacked on 3.8kgs in the 8+ weeks I was away from my meetings.
I have no one to blame but myself, however I was great at blaming the hubby. I used the excuse that he was just such a bad influence on me for those 8 or so weeks, but I should have had more will power! I suffered terribly with "Wine Flu" - every single night I was having a glass of wine once the kids were in bed, and with wine comes the late night snacks!
Anyway, we have a trip to Malaysia booked for October, and I refuse to go at this size. I told hubby I am cancelling the trip if I don't lose some weight. And finally he saw the light, so is following the Weight Watchers principles as well, although not tracking his points. Since he has started, I have found it sooooooooo easy! And even this last weekend, he had a few wines, and I didn't! I've found my will power & my mojo! WHOO HOOOOO!!
So, after starting back, last week was my first weigh in & I have lost 2.5kgs, and hubby has lost 2.8kgs. We're on a roll!! I am aiming to be 110kgs by Malaysia. I was 110kgs when we went on holiday to the Gold Coast and I found out I was pregnant with Owen. Of course I was still obese, but I felt fine about myself, and was comfortable getting into board shorts & a singlet top in the pool. So that's my aim for Malaysia - 110kgs & feeling good about myself!
In other news, our pergola is FINALLY finished & the outdoor cafe blinds are being installed as I type this. We've bought fantastic wicker outdoor furniture & a lovely outdoor kitchen. The playground/swing set is on lay by for the kids for Christmas.
Owen has given up his dummies (2 days ago) and it was easier than I expected. He's only asked for them once. Aidan is crawling!!! Commando style! Where's my baby gone!??!!? He has 4 large chompers now - not such a joy to breastfeed anymore! I am debating whether or not to wean him, but I would really like to hang out until after the Malaysia trip, as I think it would be easier & healthier for him to be breastfed rather than bottle fed there (although with the alcohol intake at the pool bar, I might have to rethink that!).
Also, my mum (who is 61) had a stroke a couple of weeks ago. She was in Queensland on a caravaning trip with my Dad, so it was quite a worrying & stressful time with not being able to see her. They should be home in a couple of days thankfully. Quite a scare for all of us, but just goes to show what 40+ years of smoking can do to you!
Anyway, feeling great & looking forward to dropping lots of kilos in the next few weeks. I am tracking every morsel that enters my mouth, and going well with the water intake. My goal for this week is to get some exercise done.
Onwards & downwards.......

An Undeserving Loss

Have had to weigh in at home AGAIN today! I miss my meetings!!! Owen was up with a temperature at 4.30am this morning, and is unwell, I am tired & trying to get in a nap, so the meeting just had to be missed. I lost 400gms this week. I really didn't deserve to lose anything, as I have been eating like a horse. Aidan has been ravenous, obviously going through a growth spurt, which has had repurcussions on my appetite! Unfortunately I have been too lazy to track, which is usually a big downfall of mine - when I don't track, I usually have a gain! But, I know that I am WW for the rest of my life, and if I have to eat a lot to accomodate the growth spurts of Aidan, then so be it. I'll still get to goal - the tortoise always win the race!!

I made a big pot of point-free vegie soup last night & now the colder weather is approaching, I will be able to make all the yummy low fat soups I used to make. Mmmmm..... looking forward to it!

I have just realised I only have 900gms to get to my next goal - my 10kg loss. Whooo hooo! Will have to make sure I am super good this week & achieve it. Next goal after that is 10% loss of my body weight.

On the home front, the kids have gone back to school after the holidays. Although it is nice to get back into a routine again, I miss having them home, and the lazy mornings in our pajamas! Owen is just absolutely lost without them! Aidan has started rolling around the floor!! Where has my newborn baby gone? They grow far too quick for my liking! Photo following of him rolling around (whilst watching the Biggest Loser in the background..haha).

Things are going full steam ahead with our new pergola. The council permits have been approved, so just waiting now on approval from the surveyor. I have been getting quotes on concreting, as we are replacing the paving & artificial grass with charcoal coloured concrete. I started ripping up the pavers yesterday (there are 1200 of them!!) and God my legs are sore today!! Nice incidental exercise! We've sold our old pergola on eBay for over $700, which we are estactic with, as we were either going to pay someone to rip it down for us, or give it away for free to my sister-in-law. Nice to have some money to go towards the expense of the new pergola or the new things we want to buy for under the pergola - outdoor ceiling fans, a new outdoor table & chairs, a big fandangle BBQ, a stone pizza oven, and playground equipment/sandpit for the kids. I just cannot wait!!!

Was also Callum's birthday party last Sunday. We had to delay it til the end of the school holidays so his friends could make it. Here he is blowing out the candles to his Wendy's ice cream cake, which I must say was YUMMY!

Week 11 - 8.7kgs Gone, 59kgs to Go!

Thank God that Easter is over. We spent the long weekend at our caravan, and I consumed a bit too much food & alcohol. And besides the chocolate, I must say I am proud of myself for my food choices. I stayed away from any chips or anything with a high fat content, and stuck to my rice crackers, low fat dips, etc.

Have decided to log my weight from home this week. It is just far too difficult to get out to the meeting with the 4 kids during school holidays. My home scales read the same as the WW ones last week, so I trust they are acurate. Happy to report a 400gm loss this week. Although not huge, much better than the gain I expected. I am still on track with my 25kgs by Christmas goal.

Water & tracking are going great, so it's time to start the exercising. I will get stuck into that as of Monday when the kids are back at school & I can get into some sort of routine.

Onwards & downwards..........

Happy 8th Birthday Callum!

My little boy turns 8 today! God, I feel so bloody old! Where did the years go??? They've just flown by. He was so very excited last night & then this morning jumped into our bed at the crack of dawn! He is having an iceskating party with his school friends at the end of the school holidays.

I am pleased to report a loss of 1.1kgs today. I didn't stay for the meeting as it would have been way too hard with all 4 kids. Extremely happy as it keeps me on track for my new challenge, which is to be under 100kgs by Christmas. I have worked out that I need to average a loss of at least 700g for the next 38 weeks to be on target - extremely achieveable! I have posted a copy of my chart to the left, and have this stuck on my fridge to keep my accountable (along with some fat photos!).

Now, there's a hard week ahead... EASTER! And of course, the thing I love most in the world is chocolate! And Easter eggs are just my absolute favourite. I'm going to treat myself to a bunny though, and will savour every mouthful!!! We are heading to our van on the coast for the Easter break, and of course, that means drinking! Going to have to be on my very best behaviour!!!

Having a Whine About Wine!!!

Have had a brilliant week, and I am totally back in the WW "zone". I have been waiting these last 10 weeks for it to "click" with me, and it FINALLY has! Lost 2.2kgs at weigh in yesterday, which I am extremely happy with. Hit my 5% goal (5% of my bodyweight lost).

My water intake this week has been superb, but I have not bothered with the treadmill. I just think I need to get my head around the eating & drinking part first, then I will move onto the exercise when I am in full swing. I have been drinking about 4 litres of water a day, and it's funny how quickly you become used to it! I take my water bottle with me everywhere now!

However, after a fantastic week, Greg wants to have a wine last night! ARGHH! So, of course I give in & we have a couple of wines, and I TOTALLY blow my points for the day, so now I have to work extra hard all this week to make up for it. I am so disappointed in myself for being so weak & not standing up to him. I really do need to stock up on the Yellowglen Jewel Champagne, as it is low in alcohol & low in points (4.5pts for the whole bottle). One good thing that did come from it, was that I tracked the points. Usually I would just wipe off the whole day and start from scratch. BUT the new me has to be accountable, and I am going to make sure when it comes to weigh in next Thursday I will have made up those extra points, and it shouldn't affect my weight loss.

School holidays start today... YAY! So happy to have the older two kids home. Also, no snacks & lunches to make, no rushed mornings, no running around to after school activites - WHOO HOOO!