This Week's Points Totals

Thursday - 51.5pts (+ 1 bonus exercise pt) Okay, so I had a major meltdown/blowout! Ate & drank everything in my sight! I think I needed to get it out of my system & I'm glad the pack of Mini Mars Bars are now out of the house (in my tummy!!) Back on track tomorrow!
Friday - 40pts (+ 12 bonus exercise pts) Yep, blew the points again, but it was all due to the fact I REALLY needed to have a couple of wines! Made sure I did a heap of exercise first though to make up for it! No more wine for the week now & no more going over points!!
Saturday - 29.5pts (+ 13 bonus exercise pts) Whoop whoop, a big pat on the back for me!! I am under points for the day, and hubby is currently pouring himself a nice cold glass of wine, but I AM strong, and I am going to bed to read a book!
Sunday - 34pts ( + 9 bonus exercise pts) Bugger, went over again! Too many Halloween lollies & chocolates, and a bottle of champers shared with the hubby!! Made the effort to get on the xtrainer at 9pm though to make up the points with exercise! Have decided to not worry about weaning Aidan! I am always so worried about what others say & how they scoff about the fact I am still feeding a toddler! Well f*ck them (hmmm, I say that, but I really do worry about what others say!!). Anyway, I feel he is beginning to wean himself, and is only having 3 feeds a day, so I will just let it be for the time being & see how he goes.
Monday - 37pts ( + 9 Bonus exercise pts) Bloody hell, went over again! What is wrong with me??!?! I really need to get my act together, especially as I will be losing 7pts soon when Aidan is weaned! Speaking of which, he only had 2 feeds today - totally missed the midday feed. What a good little boy, weaning himself!!! Anyway, Hubby's birthday today & I made a chocolate cake for him, and some vanilla cupcakes for a Melbourne Cup Day BBQ we are going to tomorrow. Of course I had to have a little bit of Birthday cake with ice cream (7pts), and shortly we will be having some MORE champers (3.5pts), and with all the tasting I did of the icing when I was making it, I added another 4pts to my total, just to be safe. I am so religious about tracking every morsel that enters my mouth, which I think is a great habit to have. And with my exercise & water intake excellent, I should be able to go great guns, so just have to make sure I stay under my 30pts (soon to be 23pts!!!) REALLY want a big loss this week!
Tuesday - 41.5pts ( + 13 bonus exercise pts) Melbourne Cup Day here, and we had a BBQ with some friends. They had a huge antipasto platter (my favourite!!), but I only had a couple of things & steered clear of the cheeses & dips. Had a burger & a snag in bread (OMG to die for - I love BBQ snags!), and salad. Took my water bottle which I kept refilling. Must be the first time I have not been drunk on Cup Day (besides the times I was pregnant!), and I must say, I really missed the occasion. Cup Day & Grand Final day are the two big days I like to let me hair down! Anyway, I have overestimated my points for the day, so although I am over by a lot, I am not too fussed, as I made up for it with exercise. LOVING my xtrainer!!!
Wednesday -30.5pts ( + 10 Bonus Exercise Pts) Have been starving today, and just wanted to eat rubbish - and have absolutely no idea why. Indulged in some lollies & Freddo Frogs! With my zero point vegie soup for dinner I managed to keep my points down, but have no idea what the hell I was doing, especially the day before weigh in!!! And to put a further dampener on things, I got to 49mins on the xtrainer & the bloody belt broke! What the f&ck am I going to do without it until the service guy can get here, which I bet is not until next week! ARGHHHH!!!

:-( Absolutely Shattered!!

Have had a massive gain of 1.4kgs this week. And I am absolutely devestated! What the f*&% went so wrong? I did have a bad weekend, but not THAT bad, and I worked my arse off the last three days to make up for it. Perhaps it could be a combination of not exercising the last week whilst sick, and reducing Aidan's breastfeeds in an attempt to wean him!? Not quite sure what has gone on, but I am not going to wallow in it - I am going to kick arse with a massive weight loss this week!!!
Things to keep on top of this week & moving forward....

• Keep under my daily 30pts, and start lowering my points as Aidan drops feeds
• Post my daily points here on my blog to keep my accountable
• Must not eat my bonus exercise points to increase my weekly weight loss

I've Lost My 7 Year Old Daughter!!!!

A loss of 700gms this week. Not bad after a huge blow out on the weekend (on Saturday I ate & drank about 70pts worth!!), and not much exercise. I have come down with a terrible head cold, and have been unable to exercise the last few days because of it. I tried exercising on Tuesday, and ended up throwing up after a huge coughing fit.... lovely! I gave myself a bit of a break from blogging as I have just been feeling so bloody crap!
Anyway, a total of 21.4kgs gone now, which is about the weight of my 7yo daughter. I am absolutely amazed when I struggle to lift her up to think that is how much heavier I was!! I cannot wait until I have lost my 9yo son who is about 38kgs!!!
As I walked by the computer last night, I saw this photo come up on our photo screen saver. It's in December 2004 at my daughter's 2nd Birthday party. I was so shocked to see it - I honestly never realised I was so huge! It just got me thinking of how far I have come in the last few months, and how my how mental outlook has changed in regards to my health & weight loss. I think of all the crap I have tried in my lifetime to control my weight - Jenny Craig, diet shakes, no carbs diets, Dietitians, Lite & Easy, the list goes on.... - and the ONLY thing that really truly works, and educates you for your lifetime is Weight Watchers! It's just such a fantastic program!!
Every few weeks/months I seem to really notice a change in the clothes I am wearing & how loose everything is becoming. I am having one of those days today where I can really notice the difference in my tummy & legs. I love these days - makes all the hard work worthwhile!

20kgs Gone Forever!!! I did it!!

A great loss of 1.4kgs this week - much better than expected! I am so happy now to have lost 20.7kgs!!! Whoop Whoop!! Absolutely stoked!!!
So, I am currently 112kgs exactly with 47kgs to go to goal! Going to just concentrate on the next 12kgs though, as I soooooo desperately want to be under 100kgs! I think it will feel almost like a "normal" person to be in double digits! Going to work my butt off to try & get there by Christmas - it's a big ask, but I might as well reach for the stars!
The last time I weighed 112kgs was before I fell pregnant with Owen & I had lost over 20kgs on WW, and here I am again!
This week, Hubby & I have a "date" out at Gordon Ramsay's restaurant. We're going there for lunch, and then on the casino for a bit of drinking & gambling. Expecting to eat lots of fatty & rich dishes for lunch, with lots of wine to wash it down, so will be super vigilent on the exercising front this week! Cannot wait!
Onwards & downwards....

Weekly Points Tally

Thursday - 43pts + 6 Bonus Exercise pts ARGH! Indulged in too much wine & Hommus dip today!!! Went over by 7pts, but am determined to make up for it tomorrow!
Friday - 34pts + 12 Bonus Exercise Pts ARGH again! Didn't want to go over my points, but alas, a busy day out & about & a couple of bad food choices. Worked my arse off on the elliptical though, so now have made up for the blowout yesterday! Loving WW & how you can still have your bad days, but just need to find a healthy balance. It's so nice not to be on a diet!!!
Saturday - 34pts + 4 Bonus Exercise Pts Went to a 3rd Birthday party today & made great food choices, but have allocated a massive 15pts for my lunch just because I don't know what the ingredients were. I have definitely over estimated, but better to be safe than sorry!!! Didn't manage much exercise because I am bloody exhausted & need an early night!
Sunday - 42.5pts No exercise today & totally blew my points with wine! We had a gorgeous picnic in the park in the city today with a group of old workmates (Hubby & I were a workplace romance!). Was a sensational day with lots of sunshine! However, when I got home, I really wanted a wine, and then of course after a bottle of wine, exercise was out the window!!!
Monday - 30pts + 6 Bonus Exercise Pts TTOM of the month hit with a bang! Feel like absolute crap, but still managed to get out in the sunshine & take the boys to the local Open Range Zoo & then did a stint tonight on the elliptical.
Tuesday - 28pts + 8 Bonus Exercise Pts Have clawed back those points I went over on Sunday! Wanted to have a really good weight loss this week, but TTOM is making me feel like absolute crap!!!
Wednesday - 32pts + 10 Bonus Exercise Pts Have wanted to eat carbs all day long - don't know what the hell is wrong with me. Tired, and just over having TTOM for some reason. Still managed a great stint on the elliptical. Hoping for a loss tomorrow!!

Ho Hum..... A Bloody Gain!

A gain of 300gms this week. Was expecting it, and I am happy that I have worked my arse off these last few days & turned around what could have been a massive gain. I now have 700gms to get to my 20kgs, and I WILL be getting that goal at my next meeting! Just watch me!
Photo of Hubby & I at an Engagement party last month...

Onwards & downwards.....

Points for this Week

Saturday - 39pts + 9 Bonus Exercise Pts Grand Final day today & I allocated myself 15pts for nibblies, and then skipped dinner cause I was so full. I doubt very much I would have used that many points as I didn't go overboard or eat anything I shouldn't have, but just used up all my exercise points to make up the difference. Going to work my butt off this week to counteract my 2 week holiday!
Sunday - 32pts + 7 Bonus Exercise Pts Got to stop bloody eating over my points each day. I really want my exercise points to be used as a bonus to help me with weight loss, but I keep going over so have to use them - ARGH! Will try harder over the next few days!
Monday - 36pts + 6 Bonus Excerise Pts ARGH did it again - went over my points! I have just been feeling so horrible these last couple of days, and so bloody hungry! I don't know what the hell is going on! Hubby seems to think everyone is grumpy & tired because of Daylight Savings, but I feel there is something more going on. Perhaps TTOM (That Time Of Month) is looming?!
Tuesday - 29pts + 8 Bonus Exercise Pts YAY! Finally did it! Stayed within my 30pts & even did a good stint on the elliptical! Very happy & hope it helps with the gain I am expecting on Thursday! Still feeling really "blargh". Definitely think TTOM is on it's way & also could be that I am exhausted after my fortnight away?!! Hopefully will feel better in the coming days.
Wednesday - 30pts + 12 Bonus Exercise Pts Yay again! Didn't go over my points! Managed to break up my exercise today into 3 lots so I was able to get a heap of exercising done - just find it so bloody hard to find some time for myself during the day!! Have been spring cleaning like crazy today so have not stopped until now. Feeling a bit funny in the tummy, so I definitely know TTOM will be here probably tomorrow - GREAT for weigh in tomorrow morning (not!!!). I am desperately hoping I have done enough this week to avoid a gain - a stay at home would be fantastic, and a tiny loss, even 100gms (not that I dare to expect one) would be unbelievable!

The Holiday is Over!

Home from our 2 week holiday to our Caravan on the Murray. Had an awesome time with great friends who were camping in their tents on the 2 sites beside us. Made me realise, I really never want to camp in a tent - give me a proper inner spring mattress in a caravan any day!!! The days were glorious (above 20deg each day!), and the nights were freezing!! The kids had an absolute ball & spent each day out & about in the fresh air. Was just wonderful, but God, it was so great to come home to our King size bed, and an ensuite!! The toilet block was a bit of a hike!!
Anyway, although I had the very best of intentions, I didn't track & I let my hair down. I stayed away from the ultimate temptation however - potato chips! For that, I am very proud. But I did consume some wine, some cider (something I have just discovered - it's delicious!), and the odd beer now & then. And of course, although I did eat good choices, I overate. I really noticed how huge my portion sizes became by the end of the fortnight.
So, I weighed myself this morning, and it seems like I have put on just under 2kgs. But I am back into it today, so am really hoping I can whittle this down before my official WI at my meeting on Thursday. Got back on the elliptical tonight - God, how I have missed it! Ankle is a bit sore, so only managed 45min, but went a bit harder on it than usual.
Had some friends over for the Grand Final rematch today, and although I did partake a little in the nibblies (good stuff - dolmades, olives, dips for which I allocated 15 points), I was full enough not to eat dinner, and I did not have one sip of alcohol - something that I don't think I have ever done during my adult life on Grand Final day (unless pregnant!).
If I have a gain on Thursday, I'll take it on the chin, and remember that I really did have a great holiday. It's only one little hiccup in my journey! I have the rest of my life to make up for it!!!
Onwards & downwards......