Surprise, Surprise!

What a surprise & a relief to have a loss of 200gms at my meeting this morning.  I ate nearly 50 points over my weekly total this last week (plus all my exercise points!!), all because I was trying to self sabotage myself.  Of course, I know now that if I had of continued on my merry way of eating within points, I would have had a massive loss!  Why do I do it?  Argh, so frustrated with myself!!
Anyway, back on track & will ensure I stay UNDER my points this week.  I am now weighing at 120.8kgs, so next week I want to be under 120.   There are just under 33 weeks til we go to Bali, so I could well & truly be in the 80s by then, and Goddam it, I plan on being there!!!  I cannot imagine how good that would feel.
It's Day 23 of Febfast (no alcohol) and I will be buying myself a leave pass for this Saturday night.  Yes, I know, defeats the purpose of fasting for the month, but I have the WW girls' weekend, and I'm not drinking Friday night, just Saturday night.  Cannot wait for it.
Going to continue with my daily exercising, and hopefully we'll have time for a family bike ride on Saturday morning before I head out to lunch with the WW girls.  If not, will just have to make do with the xtrainer.
Have been forgetting to take photos of some of the yummy low fat meals I've been making!  Had a delicious leek & potato soup (WW recipe) last night as it was Ash Wednesday, so no meat.  I sneaked a zucchini & a whole cauliflower in it as well.  I always try to sneak extra veg in where I can with the kids!  Although not a practising Catholic, my kids attend a Catholic school, so I am trying to keep within the guidelines of the Church.  It's now Lent, so no meat on Fridays, which I see as a good opportunity to get us eating more fish & seafood in general.  Yum!  Turkey burgers with salad tonight on the menu.  Double yum!
Speaking of low fat food (not), I've just polished off an iced donut & a coffee.  6 points for the donut, and I wanted it, so had it.  The beauty of WW.  I'm having left over soup for lunch (3 points).  And will be getting on the xtrainer shortly as well as going for a walk.
Feeling very positive & motivated...  Onwards & downwards....

Self Sabotage... Why oh Why?!?!?!!?

Why, oh why do I let myself get misguided by a little loss when I have worked so hard!  I have had the mindset this week of eating too much - using all my weeklies & exercise points!  Because last week I didn't use my weeklies & I only lost 200gms, that evil voice in my head just told me I might as well use the weeklies anyway!  So, I've used them all, and some!  And now I am in deficit of points, and need to work my arse off on the xtrainer the next 2 days to see if I can make up some of the points.  Mind you, I am still eating, exercising & drinking water, just using up way too many points!  Why the hell am I doing it to myself?!?!?
Exercising has been going fantastically.  I've been getting on the xtrainer each day, except for on the weekend when we went for some lovely long bike rides.  I've missed bike riding, and both hubby and I really enjoyed it.  Saturday I took the trailer with the 2 little ones (well, not so little really!!!) in it, and it nearly killed me dragging that up hills.  On Sunday, it was just hubby & I and our 10 year old, and we had the other kids minded.  It was such fun, although hard work in the heat (30+ degrees!).  We have a really great bike riding trail from our house along the coast, and it was just so enjoyable.  We're planning on making it a regular weekly ride, and hope to increase the distance each week.  All in preparation of the BIG Cancer ride in October.  Really looking forward to it.
Only 3 sleeps until I meet up with the WW girls I've befriended over the net.  Starting to get really nervous about finally seeing these lovely women.  All very exciting really.
Okay, time to get this big bum onto the xtrainer.
Onwards & downwards......

Devastated By a Little Loss......

Weigh in this morning & I had a 200gm loss.  Absolutely devastated... How on earth does 200gms reflect my efforts this week?   I've tracked every morsel that has entered my mouth, I have drank all the water I could possibly fit in, and I have exercised like a machine every single day!!!  Twice this week I didn't have time to exercise during the day, so I got on the xtrainer at 10.45pm at night!!!!  I just don't understand it.  The ONLY explanations I can think of are - 1. I drank triple the amount of water yesterday than I usually drink, so perhaps I am retaining some of that today; 2. perhaps my body is adjusting to the amount of exercise I am throwing at it; 3. perhaps it is residual fluid left over from TTOM that finished a day ago.  God, I just don't know.  SOOOOOOOO disappointed.
Anyway, will continue on with my efforts.  I'm working a lot at the moment, and although I enjoy work, I am not enjoying the stress that it is putting on my home life, especially with all the kids after school activities.

And only 8 sleeps to go until I catch up with a group of girls that I have been "chatting" to on the WW site for about 5 years now.  We are all like the best of friends, which is so strange considering we have never met each other!  We are coming together in Melbourne from near & far - one is even flying in from New Zealand!  We've been through so much together - the births of our babies together, deaths & sicknesses in the family, the trials of raising our kids, and of course, the daily struggles with our weight.  Very exciting to spend a whole weekend with these beautiful women!  Bring it on!!!

Hubby yesterday bought himself a lovely new bike, and he has registered to do the "Ride to Conquer Cancer" with me in October.  To do the ride, we have to raise $2500 each in donations to support Peter Mac, which is a hospital that specialises ONLY in cancer research & treatment.  It also happens to be the hospital where my Dad is being treated.   However, I am finding it so extremely hard to raise donations for this.  I have to raise $2500, and to date, I have raised $60.  I always donate at least $50 to causes like this when my friends ask me to, so I am at a loss why no one wants to donate.  I'll be shattered if I don't raise the necessary funds & can't go on the ride!!

If you would like to make a donation to this truly amazing hospital...







Onwards & downwards....

Battle of the Night Time Snacking....

Everything is still going really great with me this week, but I have noticed how now & then I am prone to a mindless snack after dinner.  All within points & measured & counted, but really, it can't be good to be snacking at night time.  Most nights  I am working and I get home late (11pm-ish) so I don't snack, and I only have a cuppa at work, I don't take any snacks (unless it is a daytime shift) & I don't buy from the vending machine, but on the nights I am at home, I might indulge.  For example, last night, I had a Skinny Cow ice-cream cup - delicious!  Only 2pp on WW, and much nicer & creamier than the WW sundae cups.  I should have stopped there!!  But then, I nibbled on 12pp worth of fruit & nut mix with a green tea.  Really?  Did I need that extra snack.  Surely the cuppa would have been fine on its own.  So disappointed in myself, and something I am going to work on in the future.

 My new discovery.  Helga's Sandwich Thins!!!  Only 3pp for one, and toasted it is delicious!!  I had one for brekkie with egg, cottage cheese & lettuce, and the next day one for lunch with ham & salad.  They are fantastic!!!

Aidan with his Spiderman-chino whilst out for coffee with me this week.  Owen has started 4yo Kinder 3 times a week, so it is nice to have one on one time with my baby!!!

The scales keep going in the right direction, and I am still in "the zone".

Onwards & downwards.....

2.1kgs - Yeah Baby!!!

I knew I was in for a loss after a brilliant week, but TTOM (That Time Of Month) arrived last night & I always weigh heavier, so what a shock when I weighed in at my meeting this morning & had a fantastic loss of 2.1kgs!!!  3.7kgs in 3 weeks - not too shabby!!!  So very, very happy with myself!  And on the subject of my meeting, I have no idea what is going on.  Our WW leader was missing in action last week, and then today some guy was there - apparently the head of WW in this region, and he was TOTALLY out of his comfort zone taking the meeting.  Anyway, he announced we would be getting a new leader next week!  WTF?!?!  Hope everything is okay with our older leader but I PRAY TO GOD we get a good leader next week - I love the meetings, but just cannot enjoy them when the leader is crap!!!
Dad goes for his first Chemo treatment tomorrow.  It's a bloody shit that he has to have chemo - he is so fit & healthy at the moment, and it is going to be sad to see the chemo knock him around.  However, he is so positive, it is infectious!
Goals for this week: continue with my water intake, daily exercise & brilliant tracking.  I CAN BLOODY WELL DO THIS!!!!

11.5kgs gone, 56.2kgs to go, 35 weeks until Bali!!!

Onwards & downwards..... BRING IT ON!!!

245 Sleeps!!!

Have just realised it's only 245 sleeps until we go to Bali!!!  Or exactly 35 weeks!  Which means I have plenty of time to shed some of this weight!  Sure, I am not going to be at goal weight by then, but I could realistically be under 90kgs!!!!  The last time I was 90kgs I was pregnant with my first child!!!!  On our trip to Bali in March 2011, I weighed 103kgs when I left, and although I was still very overweight, I felt so good about myself.  I can imagine how fantastic I would feel at 13kgs less!
Other countdowns for me:

• 218 sleeps until my 40th Birthday (just over 31 weeks)
• 322 sleeps until Christmas (46 weeks exactly)

Onwards & downwards....

Regaining My Fitness Level

I look back at March 2011 and can't believe how easily I did 60-90 minutes on the xtrainer each day!  I have been clawing my way to regain my fitness levels, and finally today I managed 60mins on the xtrainer.  Yes, it nearly killed me, and I probably won't be able to walk tomorrow, but I am so proud of myself!!  I won't push myself that hard for the next few days, as I have to ease my ankle back into it (and it's a bit sore right now), but the best thing about it. is that I have earned 19 bonus exercise points for WW.  I am determined to have a great loss this week!
I've just been browsing the WW Australia site, and checking out some of the blogs on there, as recommended by a friend.  I am not game to post a blog on that site, for fear someone I know would stumble across it!  Is that strange?  I feel I am safer here on blogspot, and it would be harder to stumble across - is that silly?  Anyway, I digress.... I came across this fantastic quote on someone's blog....

"The tenth bite tastes the same as the first bite"


Isn't that so bloody true?  I must remember that the next time I get a chocolate craving!!!!!


Onwards & downwards.....

Waiting to Drop the Ball

I am so in "the zone" at the moment, but I have this anxious feeling, like I am waiting for something to happen to shift me out of that zone.  Is that weird?  I guess I am feeling that it is so long since I felt like this, that perhaps it's not right... that I am just waiting to stuff up.  But everything is just so perfect - my eating, my water intake, my exercise.  Perhaps it is because it has been so long since everything had just fallen into place so perfectly with me that it is a normal reaction for me to subconsciously think - "what the fuck is going on here"?
Let's hope this continues.  I'm on a mission!!!
Onwards & downwards......

Week 88 of Weight Watchers!! Seriously!?!?

I am now in Week 88 of my weigh ins at Weight Watchers.  Loss of 1.6kgs for the fortnight for me - my "official" weight loss on the Weight Watchers scales.  Slightly disappointed, as I was expecting more as my home scales are showing a bigger loss.  But I do have to remember that I am weighing in at WW with clothes on, shoes on, and brekkie eaten.   And I did have that blow out on Tuesday night with the wine... damn!!
Anyway, feeling so positive & motivated & "in the zone" and I don't want this feeling to ever change.  I am so looking forward to next week's weigh in already!!  I remember last time when I was "in the zone" when I lost over 30kgs, and my meetings & WI were like an addiction to me!  I want to hold onto that feeling forever!
Goals for this week:

• Keep exercising daily on the xtrainer;
• Keep drinking heaps of water;
• Keep tracking every morsel.

I am already achieving all 3 of those goals so just have to keep up with it all.  Going out for dinner on Saturday night, so will plan to have the best WW friendly option available.  Other than that, I am able to plan all my other meals.

Zucchini Slice I made for dinner the other night.  We call it "bacon slice" in my house as the kids wouldn't eat it if they knew it had zucchini & carrot in it!!  And this pic is of it the next day when I had leftovers for lunch with a big dollop of tomato sauce (that hubby thinks is disgusting!).  I would eat tomato sauce on everything if I could!!!

Onwards & downwards.......

Day One of Febfast

Hubby and I are doing Febfast.  It was a success for me last year, and I raised $370 for charity, so thought I would give it a shot this year too, and I've managed to rope hubby in as well!  So, for the month of February, no booze at all.  EXCEPT you are allowed to buy a leave pass for a day if you need it, which is just as well, as I have a catch up planned with a group of Weight Watchers girls at the end of the month.  It's a whole weekend thing, but I plan only on having a few drinks the Saturday night.
So, of course, last being the 31st January, I went silly.  Too many wines, which TOTALLY blew my weekly points out of the water.  But that wasn't the bad part.  Whenever I drink, I eat!  And it's not that I eat badly, I just eat too much, uncontrollably.  Last night I had a few lollies, and then I consumed an enormous amount of Hommus & rice crackers, which I didn't have the points allowance for!  Silly, silly girl.
Weigh in tomorrow, and with TTOM looming (That Time of Month) and the blow out on Tuesday night with the wine, I am expecting a gain on last week's loss of 1.9kgs.  Ho hum.  It will not deter me.  I am back into it & raring to go.
Time to jump on the xtrainer!!

Onwards & downwards!