Ross River Virus BE GONE!!!!

Well, I sit here absolutely shattered.  Weigh in this morning saw a gain of 1.4kgs.  I'm weighing in at 101.6kg and have moved further away from those double digits.  I expected it, I knew it was coming, so why am I sitting here close to tears and so upset about it?

I think it's the realisation that I have no control over this Ross River Virus, and I just have to accept whatever my body is doing.  And that's the problem - I HAVE NO CONTROL!  Previously if I'd gained, I'd have a reason for it, and although I'd be pissed off at myself, I knew I deserved it.  I didn't deserve a gain this week. I know deep down that last week wasn't a genuine loss of 4.2kgs because I was sick, but it still pisses me off that I was so close to getting under 100kgs, and now here I am 1.7kgs away.  Again!

But, I have to remember it's not all about the number on the scales.  I am feeling smaller & lighter & fitter.  I have to listen to my body, and let it rest when it needs to, so that I can recover from the RRV quickly.  I will get to those double digits eventually.  This week is just another week in the grand scheme of the rest of my life.  Ho hum.  I will get there!